hi there! here's who i am.
my name is rayn. i use they/them pronouns. please note that i am 18.
you'll usually find me writing poetry or casual gaming. i plan to study psychology.proudly queer - if you're curious, visit my pronouns page!feel welcome to reach out for casual debates and discussions about deep stuff and the matters of the world, if you like!
we're not always pretty. that's who we really are.
I’m tripping over tangled shoelaces, but I didn’t know where to walk anyways.
The knots reach my chest, my stomach - they pull my shoulders in.
There is a door, but no path.
There is a window, but no eyes.
Walking blindly only causes me to trip again.
So I sit, and I tie my shoelaces again.
My fingernails pick at the knots, but there is no more “out” - they only tighten.
When they finally resemble a bow, I’ll stand on wobbly legs.
The door is so much closer now.
Suddenly, I think it’s not so bad. Just a few more steps ahead.
But my imperfect bows of shoelaces have fallen apart again.
Where is my energy to tie them again?
I don’t have the fingers to tie my laces. Could I ever have the fingers to tie my laces?
So I’ll get comfortable with the ground, rolling here with my untied shoes.
I watch the people walking by.
Some have perfect bows.
Some leave their laces untied too, but they don’t seem to fall.
I can’t tie, and I can’t walk.
Perhaps all I need is a hand of help. A tight-tied bow, and I’d never stop walking again.
I think I’ve fallen asleep on this linoleum floor, because nobody is coming.
They are trying too hard not to trip - they cannot teach me to walk.
Can I blame them? I feel the same.
Maybe one day my feet will wake, and my hands will wake.
Maybe one day, my feet will be pretty as ribboned bows, and my legs will support my weight.
But for now, I lay here on this floor, and all I can do is wait.
- a poem for anyone feeling the same; written by me on 11/07/25
i could talk about things i love all day..
hobbies:
pokémon, theatre, color guard, choir, readinganimals:
penguins, snakes, dinosaurs, sharks, butterflies, mothscharacters:
piplup, eeyore, cinnamorollgames:
cookie run: kingdom, roblox, webkinz, club penguinshows:
knights of guinevere, house, orange is the new black, the owl house, gravity falls, my little pony, inside jobmusical theatre:
hadestown, wicked, little shop of horrors, heathersmusic:
chappell roan, daisy the great, chloe moriondo, clairo, billie eilishworldly possessions:
socks, soft blankets, books, stuffed animals, mascara